Depression has been a fact of life for me for nearly 20 years. When I was a teenager I can remember feeling overwhelmed a lot. My emotions were always in control and I was very confused most of the time. My self-esteem was very low and I generally felt the underlying sadness that I just couldn’t shake off.
I was diagnosed with depression after I had my first child at 25 and was recently diagnosed as BPD (borderline personality disorder). Looking back, I was fighting these demons way before I was aware I even had them. In hindsight, a lot of stuff I felt/did/said makes sense knowing the things I do now.
I have fought through eating disorders, drug abuse, thoughts of suicide, unhealthy and unstable relationships and so much more.
Today, I’m happy to say that I’ve finally started figuring out how to live with my demons. I have 3 children, am in a stable relationship and have a (somewhat) normal relationship with my family. That’s quite a feat considering some of the lows I’ve experienced and the things I’ve done when I was there.
The goal of my blog is to enlighten those who don’t really know what it’s like to struggle with your mental health and to empower those who face this challenge on a daily basis. You are not alone!